whale watching in hervey bay, queensland
we have a lot of typical whale shots, but i thought i'd put up this photo because it seems more ominous, or something, than some of the others. the whales came very close. again, we didn't have a zoom lens. a group of 3 young humpback whales came right up to our boat and were very playful. they kept rolling over and exposing their bellies. at times, it looked like they were dancing in the water. later, they moved away from the boat and leaped and flipped about. i think they call it breaching? i forget the correct terminology. still later on, we saw a mother with a young calf that seemed quite eager to show off. it's almost like the whales are paid to put on a show, or like they get joy out of it, or something out of it.
i hope to put up dolphin photos from a trip to new zealand at some point. the roll wasn't all used up, and so the pics still haven't been developed yet. my favourite thing was seeing two young dolphins rubbing their bellies back and forth together in the air. i wonder if i caught that on film. probably not.
update: ok, there are no impressive dolphin photos, but i'll put a photo up anyway.
[26/01/05: this is just a sort of private joke, on me. i got the message and it hurt. i think the thing is that i've just had so much practice dealing with these kinds of feelings that nothing really changes. i just go on, pushed this way and that by internal influences, and express whatever, and in a way there's a kind of detachment about it. change the locks and hide, lash out in return, who has the energy. i rolled over and died a long time ago. i'm too apathetic to feel scared, and i don't know, maybe that will change. i don't know how obvious this is, but in my own way, i want to get to some kind of 'truth' or understanding about myself that includes facing things that others may not think i have the capacity to face. it's interesting to think that i could offer a lot freely, and if directly asked i'd really try to go further and that even adding that in with what i'm unaware that others observe.... it's like i still don't really know if anyone could really see. in a way, i feel like i'm less exposed than you are. anyway, i feel hurt and insecure, but i realize i'll just continue on, you know, thinking about subatomic particles and trying to dance without theorizing.]