compulsion..
good choice of word.
i'm sure you realize i'm checking obsessively.
i can't help fixating.
i don't know what i'm trying to do, either.
i think i want to observe who you are and who i am for now,
and just see what happens. not force anything.
i think i want us to feel that we can just be.
i accept that i want to experience more of you,
but i'm not sure what that means or entails.