i don't have a clearly formed conscious objective. i think i'm processing and expressing my confusion. i don't know what else to do. [note as of july 9 2004: i'm not sure what to do with this page, and i may leave it as is. it's possible that sometime soon i will put together a new 'diary'.]

 

 

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july 2003 - feb 2004

13/07/03
extra photos
i hate my body
15/07/03
18/07/03
22/07/03
08/08/03
sentimental
20/08/03
24/08/03
synchronicity
25/08/03
26/08/03
28/08/03
psychotic interlude
10/09/03
10/11/03
03/12/03
miscellaneous photos
10/01/04
red and black photos
17/01/04
25/01/04 - photos
repetitive
...more
14/02/04
...more

 		 

feb 2004 - july 2004

29/02/04
03/03/04
16/03/04
18/03/04
20/03/04
fear and mourning
transmutation
15/04/04, 10/05/04
on my own
more photos
gk - 1
gk - 2
16/05/04 - photos
30/05/04
...continued
fliba
hikikomori, etc...
an unfinished, extra thing
more gk
...continued
fuck it all
26/06/04
primal makeover
more fun with makeup
ritual (1)
...(2)
...(3)

 

april-june 2003

06/04/03 - gazing erratically
08/04/03
09-10/04/03 - nobody likes me
12/04/03 - test results again
15/04/03 - the tower
18/04/03
20/04/03
21/04/03
stripped
28/04/03
03/05/03
13/05/03 - my mother
15/05/03
15/05/03 - later
17/05/03
17/05/03 - later
18/05/03
19/05/03 - panic
22/05/03
23/05/03
27/05/03
29/05/03
30/05/03
31/05/03
03/06/03
07/06/03
27/06/03

early 2003

03/01/03
06/01/03 - the orgy to end all orgies
08/01/03
pro-ana/pro-mia
09/01/03 - a lost dream
what men and women 'deserve'
life vomit
11/01/03
13/01/03 - my hair is falling out at an alarming rate
14/01/03
17/01/03 - test results
30/01/03
chocoholic thing
27/02/03
01/03/03 - i can't fucking stand it
03/03/03
13/03/03
lost, drifting
14/03/03
19/03/03
23/03/03 - a long night
.. continued
.. continued
.. continued
25/03/03 - the same sex
25/03/03 - later
26/03/03
27/03/03

2002

14/06/02 - awkward beginning
22/06/02 - carpe noctem
27/06/02 - essential
28/06/02
29/06/02
30/06/02 - henry/pets
02/07/02
04/07/02 - gk returns
06/07/02 and 09/07/02
15/07/02 - it's over
16/07/02
16/07/02 - lost emails
17/07/02
18/08/02
semi-stream-of-consciousness
my dear psycho-the-rapist
extra babble, with small changes for now
gk in his hippie phase
bleach/appearance issues
food
kiss
contemplation
13/09/02
28/12/02 - my body: part 1
part 2
part 3
part 4

 

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