today i've been tying up straggling ends here in this diary. i feel like i'm changing and that i need to express myself in different ways, but i want to get some of the old stuff out of the way first, even if it's imperfect, disorganized and incomplete. maybe i need to clear some things out, so that i can think more coherently. i am going to keep this website up in its entirety. maybe i'll even occasionally add something to it.. it's just that i think i want to try to express myself in different ways now.
i have decided to surrender to chaos, and just see what happens next.